My Feng Shui =]

AM I THE ONLY FUCKING PERSON IN THE WORLD WITH ANY SENSE OF REASON OR THOUGHT PROCESS AT ALL???? WHY ARE PEOPLE EXPECTING THE IMPOSSIBLE FROM ME???????

JUST STOP!!! AHHHH ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!! STOP PLAYING STUPID!!!!!!

1- i wish you werent a fucking pot heat

2- i wish you would stay the fuck out of my life, my babies life, and my wifes life.

3- i wish you would grow the fuck up.

4- i wish you would grow up more. i feel bad kicking a little boys ass so ill just have to wait till you mature a little bit.

5- i wish you would die

6- i wish i could go back in time and kill you

7- i wish i never met you

8- i wish you werent such a fucking retarded burnout who blames his actions on pot. if youre sorry for what you do and say then dont say it again!!! TAKE A FUCKING BREAK FROM THE WEED AND GROW SOME GOD DAMN BALLS.

just in case anyone was wondering. thats my wish list for the holiday season. fuck you.

lovve my boo

id be worth more dead.

i love you kayla king!!! youre so amazing. i promise i wuv you foreverrrr <3

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where do i even start. youve been on my mind so much. especially tonight. im not sure why but i havent been able to think of one thing but you at all today. the only thing i see in my future is you and us and our family. im so excited!!!!! im so in love with youuuuu. i cant explain it, but all i know is i am 100% positive i want to be with you forever and ever and always. youve shown me love i have never known until i met you. youve just changed my life so much, i dont regret a thing. i love you kayla elyice king.

i wonder.

so ive not done a real entry in a long ass time. so here goes everything:

lifes been good and bad these past weeks. i shaved my beard! i still have the goat though. haha. kayla hates it.

im drinkin apple juice.im sayin random things because i feel like if i open up about one thing, everything will come out and this will be a few pages long.

life in general has just been neutral lately. when something bad happens, something good happens and cancels it out. i guess its my yin and yang or whatever. some people have pissed me off like nothing else, but then theres always one person who makes my day 1000x better just when i think of her. every time im with her and talking to her its just.,..idk.. perfect? i feel like thats a bit of an understatement.

i think ive been working too much. but on the other hand i havent been gettin shit on paychecks. kroger just skipped over my 3 and 6 month raise, so theyll probably do the same for my one year. oh boy.

actually, i think ive been in school too much. band is kicking my ass. its way too much time and commitment. time i dont have, and commitment that i dont want to give. i wish i had a choice. gahh.

see!?!?!? im doing it. im ranting. blah. i gotta get off here before i start goin on.

buh bye.

 i love you kayla boo.

dont regret a thing. everything i have done i am content with. When i look at the big picture, i realize on small difference could make the biggest change to the future. i am so happy with life right now. Kayla, you are my world. youre everything i care about. we are amazing.thank you for everything you have given me and will do for me in the future. i promise i will love you forever with everything in me.

I LOVE THIS ALBUM!! I have really been gettin into switchfoots latest album. i love how they tell stories with their songs and people can actually relate to them. that is a dying art.

on the other hand i have just recently gotten into three 6, so yea. haha. i just like it because i can be bumpinnn to it.

i know this might get annoying after a while. i just feel like i cant say it enough. i am so lucky to be with the girl of my dreams. she makes my life so much better. every little thing about her brightens my day. i cant wait to be with her every single day and night of my life. i love you kayla!!